FASHION STATEMENT

Thursday, February 08, 2007

Today, i received my higher chinese 'O' levels results. When i saw the list, i was so stunned Kaitang asked me to relax. Ya, i didnt do well. I was aiming for a B3, but ended up with a B4. When people know about it, i know that they must be really surprised. Im surprised too. I didnt expect As, but a B3 would do for me. B4. When i sat at the side, i started thinking of alot of things. What would my parents, friends and relatives say? How can i do well for my Higher Chinese exam when my normal 'O' levels are like this? Should i drop or continue? What will my father say?

At that point i felt so stressed, i cried when Cressa talked to me. Joan and Kaitang comforted me and Joan gave me a highlighter that she won. I really appreciate that! I know, cry yesterday today cry again. Seriously, it was my fault we lost in the relay. I ran first but lagged behind, causing them to fall back and ended up last. My heart really beat fast when i jogged across the field and seeing Zumei running towards the finishing line. I felt so damn guilty, i started crying when Liu said it was alright. Ya, Im a good for nothing. Ugly, stupid and a failure at evrything.

I started secondary school as a hardworking girl in Sec1, even getting good level positions. Then came Sec2, where i everyday stayed back to play and have fun. Naturally my results dropped drastically. This was the year which i have the most regrets about. I regretted not working hard, i only knew how to play. I cried when i was streamed to 3E4. My clique went to 3E1,2,3. But, I never regretted going to my present class. They are really a bunch of enthusiastic and fun people. Even in Sec3, my grades were getting worser. I was too lazy and never bothered about studying. When i failed for an important English test, my friends whom i known since Sec1 was shocked. English was my best subject in school but i managed to flunk it. Thankfully, i managed to scrape through and promote to Sec4.

Sec4. My secondary school days are coming to an end. I do not want to leave the school with results that i would not be proud of. I knew all along that i needed a jolt, something that would wake me up. My results happen to be it. I do not want to keep empty promises to myself. Wake up, Jocelyn.

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yours truly<3
11:47 PMY